It has been a gradual pulling. A tearing down of my heart and building up by God. In the 2010’s I was torn in complete humility by a major event in my life that changed perspective on everything. I was torn to the very bottom core of what a human being could be and my faith, husband and family helped build me back up, as did dear friends and the community in which we lived.
There has been a healing process in this. A decade of struggles, challenges, sorrows, losses, joy. I don’t remember the 2000’s being this hard. Because they weren’t. But somewhere in the struggle of the last decade I started to wonder if this is the only way it could ever been from here on out… and the answer of Our Lord is… no. There are seasons and chapters. Pruning, blooming, dying again, growing again.
On Christmas morning this year the Priest said it clearly, “It is OK to let your faith soar! It is ok to question your faith, to grapple with your faith, to learn and struggle, but it is ok to also SOAR.” This hit me. I have spent so much time grappling, and there is nothing wrong with this. It is a season. An entire book can be written on spiritual deserts, spiritual pruning, and most of all humility- but it’s wonderful in that humility to let go, let God, and SOAR.
It is ok to be really happy, to move forward in joy with Jesus. St. Frances de Sales says “Never be in a hurry; do everything quietly and in a calm spirit. Do not lose your inner peace for anything whatsoever, even if your whole world seems upset.” And in fact, as our goal is to be living Saints, this is exactly what we should strive for.
Ways to maintain this peace in the New Year and decade:
Sacraments & Adoration
Remember whose we are and who we serve.
See Jesus in disguise in others.
Set healthy boundaries, communicate them to others, honor them.
Be as Fr. Mike Schwitz said in his new years video: just 1% better each day in what we set out to do.
So I challenge myself and others to move forward in this next decade in peace and dare I say a beautiful happiness. It is ok to grieve, it is necessary when tragedy hits. But there is this wonderful world, this glorious world God created, and we must capture the beauty and build up what is around us with the time that we have. And I am learning that God might want that to be soaring with Him. And I’m afraid to fly! So we step forward with our faith and allow the Creator to help us fly spiritually, emotionally, and in life with Him.
May you and yours have a very Happy New Year. Wherever you are on your life and faith journey, it’s ok to take the first step… it’s also ok to start running or soaring.